Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend.

I just found out, after finishing Day 7, that these are supposed to be letters addressed to the title. I have been typing these like personal rantings, but I think I'll keep it this way though because I prefer talking to myself, lol.

Well, I got to know most of my Internet friends from Mabinogi, and in a wide range of age, too. I know kids that are still in jr. high, but I also know some that are already mothers. This is what I find interesting in playing online games, it's an alternate world where I can meet all sorts of people. I don't really have a favorite internet friend, just like how I won't pick a favorite amongst my friends in reality. But I'll pick two of them to introduce, and they are both women (a girl and a woman, to be exact). I have some other internet friends that I know more of, but I chose them because 1) they both are people I only know from Mabinogi (meaning I haven't met them in person), 2) I've known them both for more than a year (close to two years), and 3) yet I still don't know much about them personally.

Prizoner of Love

禮拜三下午，我面對著兩位失戀的朋友。看著她們沮喪的臉、憂鬱的眼神、不穩定的情緒...我很難想像自己以前也有渡過這種時期。我真的，已經無法想像，離我太遠了。我知道會心痛、會難過、會自責、會想太多...但我也終於懂了當時陪著我的朋友們的感受。

朋友A：都是我的錯。都是我的錯。都是我的錯。都是我的錯。都是我的錯。loop

朋友B：她為什麼不回頭?她為什麼沒有我看起來還是這麼快樂? (一萬個為什麼)

我：(...)

好運 (?)

玩瑪奇這麼久，我第一次感受到強運。運氣好是一種會令人上癮的感覺，因為太幸福了!!!! 以前不管怎麼玩轉蛋、怎麼開寶箱、怎麼抽什麼鳥的，都是一場一場的空。最近我卻非常好運，好運到讓我不可置信。

我竟然在下水道開到花瓣晚禮服....!!!!!! (價值1k萬) 雖然在當下我是決定送人，不過這也真的太不可思異了。1k萬!!!!! (呆) 雖然花瓣晚禮服送人了，我寶箱也有抽到大蝴蝶結 (買的唯一一把鑰匙開到的)，貓頭鷹也給了我貝姬魔法師服。我第一次感受到什麼叫好運 (泣)

如果你的朋友生肖是馬的請好好珍惜(轉)

好像是個闡述屬馬個性的文章，但其實我覺得這篇也就是什麼都列出來了(?) 正看看就好，粗字體的是我本身認同的。

整體而言，我就是口是心非又不善於表達。感覺有點可悲 = =

2010的瑪奇

或許很多人會說，線上遊戲(我爸媽都說電動)是小孩子在玩的。但我一直認為線上遊戲是我的生活的一部分。當初因為大一暑假都在忙迎新宿營，導致我與瑪奇脫節，再加上朋友們都紛紛離開。我想...最關鍵的一刻是我之後習慣性開瑪奇時發覺Dear公會已不在。那一瞬間，我的心已與瑪奇離別了。

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.

....I don't think there's anything I want to say.

Enough has been explored about my only love affair that happened like more than 3 years ago. It's really been a long time, so long that I feel kinda sad that it's the only memory of a relationship that I have.

She and I are great friends nowadays, actually, we really did go back to the time when we were just friends. It's just goes to show how much time has really passed.

But then, this quote that I saw online just makes me feel all complicated.

After a relationship, if the the two people can be friends, they are either still in love, or never were. If you were truly in love with somebody, just being their friend wouldn’t be possible.

So, were we really in love before, or are we.......... (?)

98迎宿魂

該怎麼說呢? 迎宿，真的是一輩子。連續3年都前往九華山莊，第一年是學員、第二年是服務員、第三年是老人。

對於看著迎宿漸漸形成到上營，其實我一直都抱持著複雜的心態。要不是當時我拒絕了總召，不然站在服務長的位置應該是我。我也能帶領著服務員與他們一起努力，直到最後一起擁抱一起哭泣，這又是一條未走之路。(小小的不正經心聲：苡均是我喜歡的型啦，可惡。) 我也是第一次站在外面，李豪善的圈圈外面，第一次感受到我是外人。

那4天的心酸並沒有比感動少，應該說...心酸更過於感動。我替當年的98服務員感到心酸，也替98老人感到心酸。薪傳時，我什麼感覺也沒有。因為就我的感受而言，他們99迎宿的感動是只屬於他們的。不管再怎麼接近，我們老人終究還是圈子外的人。我所有的感動僅來自於那只有跑過迎宿才會懂的，那一路走過來的心酸血淚史。

回去當老人是要有個寬容的心，我深深體會到。我們沒有義務去幫忙，這一切都是出自於一種切也切不斷的牽絆。更重要的是，那些營本是我心中重要的朋友們。我會再次去九華，就只是為了這些所謂的情感。然而營本們對我們98老人卻是冷漠的、極排外的與巧妙的無視，這很傷感情的欸。

不過最後在烤肉場，一聽到"第一天"的前奏，一起開始微笑時... 那一剎那，什麼都無所謂了，真的。一切的心酸與憤怒，都在那一瞬間化為我們當年98迎宿的感動。跳營舞會不自覺的微笑，揮別了心中的所有疲憊跟不滿。楊馥年做的薪傳影片，在我腦海中重播，這就是迎宿。

迎宿是一輩子的。

Day 6 — A stranger.

Oh shoot, it's already nearing the end of September. I guess returning to Mabinogi does have some influence on my other online activities. My tumblr posts have greatly declined and I have posted even less here, but it's also due to the fact that school has started. So, here's Day 6.

Hmmm...this is a tricky topic. I don't usually care about strangers (i.e. people I don't know or am not close with), and I usually forget about them after a few days. But I do have someone in mind, and she is a student at the same college that I go to. We've never formally met, but I have seen her in the same classes or at random places at school. I know for a fact that she is in the Japanese Department, and that she is also a member of one of the dance clubs. What made me remember her out of so many people that I meet at school are that she again has a same course as me this semester and her outfit/style.

選擇

有時真的覺得我當時應該填東華大學在東吳大學前面，這樣我就是離家大學生了，但這樣也意味著我得失去很多現在的一切。我知道住外面我會很自由很快樂，但是那樣的快樂能跟現在也擁有的快樂相比嗎?我永遠都不會知道答案，因為我選擇了東吳大學這一條路。

就如Robert Frost這首詩一樣，「The Road Not Taken未走之路」。

Day 5 — Your dreams.

Dear,

I don't know what my dreams are anymore. I once thought I knew. I once thought I understood. But no, I don't.

When I was young, I was a little girl that loved to draw horses and dogs and small animals. So that little girl wanted to become a vet that could help animals. As I grow older, the sight of blood and having to cut open skin made me cringe. I failed at math. I do own a cat now though.

When I was a bit older, I was a teenager that loved to draw. I drew to express my feelings and sheets of blank paper were all filled with the immature scribblings of an immature teenager. That naive teenager proudly showed her drawings to her mother, who dismmissed the drawings with a scoff. "You're only wasting your time by drawing that kind of pictures, why don't you go learn water painting or something?" A few years after, most of the drawings are gone. Now there rarely are any drawings at all.

Now I am 20. I don't know what I want. I read books that make me cry. I read books to make me happy. I take pictures to capture the beautiful moments that I glimpse in life. I write down things that make sense to me. I wrote plays. I have all this, but I still don't know what direction to take. Where are my dreams?

I stare at my own shadow on a sunny day, I stare and stare. The sun is bright, I cover my eyes as I look up to the sky. Where are my dreams?

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative).

Hahaha, it's already into September, and I'm still only on Day 4!!

I don't really want to dedicate this whole post only to my brother, who I find...annoying as hell. So I'm going to split the post into two parts, one is about my brother, the other will be about my cousin.

Day 3 — Your parents.

My parents!!! I can keep this simple, or I can write on and on like forever. I have a somewhat complicated relationship with my mother. Well, I guess I'm on good terms with them most of the time, they're nice folks really!

I was definitely a Daddy's Girl when I was little. Heck, I even said I wanted to marry my dad in the future. ; ) My dad really loves me, and I love him too! He's very busy with work these few years, so we don't get as much time together as we would've liked. This makes the distance between us a bit farther than it was when I was younger. My dad has awesome hobbies like reading, photography, sudoku, etc. If I have the chance, I really would want to discuss literature with him over coffee, seriously. And I would still go to him if I really wanted anything, it ususally works when it's with my dad, lol.

My mom, on the other hand, is a quite different case. I'm really close to my mom, even my friends can tell. We bicker all the time, but that's normal between a college kid and parent, right? Things only got serious back in my freshman year, when she nearly made me come out to her. I didn't, not because I don't want to tell her, but it's because she's...quite homophobic. She doesn't believe in homosexual love, and only on this thing I can't get over. We haven't brought up the topic again, and I don't plan on doing that in the near future. I think it is best to come out to my mother when I am independent.

I am a family person, so this is just short introduction, but I think this will do.

剩下兩個禮拜

兩個禮拜，還有可能嗎?

我覺得越來越渺茫...而且病不好很難辦事欸!! 白天都賴在家裡想睡覺，因為半夜都咳嗽到失眠。我都快抓狂了! 一直去看醫生感覺也沒什麼差，我現在也不是感冒了吧。

過敏真的害慘我了。

我要在兩個禮拜內達成目標，這樣開學才有點能期待的...

Day 2 — Your Crush.

(continually coughs)
My health problem is just getting more and more annoying. I don't think I have the cold anymore, but I keep on having the coughs. Is is really bronchial allergy?? Please not let it be because of my cat...

Back to the title, my crush, hmmm... Funny that I do actually have something of a crush lately, though I don't think it'll end up being anything more than a crush. I'm being pessimistic I know, but it's the truth. Here goes...

Day 1 — Your Best Friend.

Well, I find it hard to term anyone as my best friend. It's not like that I don't make friends; in fact, I somehow always manage to make a friend or two in an unfamiliar environment. It's just that I'm not good at making a relationship last, I totally suck at it. I have had many best friends during different periods or parts of my life, so I guess I'll list them off that way.

30 Day Letter Challenge

There's a lot of stuff like this on Tumblr, but I don't think my Tumblr is personal enough for me to do this challenge. I sometimes don't know what to type here at Blogspot anyways, so I'll give this a shot!

Day 1 — Your Best Friend.
Day 2 — Your Crush.
Day 3 — Your parents.
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative).
Day 5 — Your dreams.
Day 6 — A stranger.
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend.
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet.
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to.
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you.
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from.
Day 15 — The person you miss the most.
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country.
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood.
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be.
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad.
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest.
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression.
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to.
Day 23 — The last person you kissed.
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory.
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times.
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to.
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day.
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life.
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to.
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror.

課表悲劇

這是理想的課表，24學分。

這是實際選上的課表，18學分。

其實也沒有我想像中差啦，雖然一開始看到時有點傻眼。作文是我自己退掉的，但現在聖經沒上...我大概就是重新選進(一)12的作文課。音樂與人文第一次沒上是因為限修規定不符，我也沒辦法。這樣一看，我最差也會有20學分。禮拜五真的空著欸...

唉，在帶營隊時錯過一次選課有些損失。現在只能等開學後的加退選了。

至少我同性戀文學有上，耶。

8/24新補充：
我去看了修課人數，發現我的作文只剩(二)12馬健君的課我能修，我看...我大三要18學分度過了 = = 我原先充滿光明理想的大三課表...(哀悼)

果然是這樣啊..

剛剛聽到我哥對我媽講說主演KYMCO"彎道情人"廣告的女主角林辰唏是個"T"...又補充說是女同性戀。雖然我想衝過去糾正他，但我媽也在場...我也只好繼續待在房間偷聽。每次有這種對話時，我還是會感到緊張。快兩年前與我媽起的爭執，仍然是個揮不去的陰影。

不過...
老哥啊，她不是T。

不是說只要是女同性戀就叫作T，果然很多圈外人是不懂這一點的。我一直以為T已經算是滿廣泛的一詞，但看來還是存在著許多誤解。我不是很喜歡T或P這兩詞，但不得不承認他們很方便。反正說自己是T，對方大概就懂了。對於不熟的路人甲，我也不想多做解釋。T跟P都代表著女同性戀，但也不盡然。

Does the walker choose the path, or the path choose the walker?

I’ve always been a believer that we have the most control over our lives, and that is the only thing which matters… but sadly, I’m realizing it isn’t. Our environment and relations play such huge catalysts in our game, that it’s actually rather selfish to think ‘we can do it all ourselves, we write our own destiny, we make the changes’ … We may be driving the bus, but we aren’t the bus, nor the road, nor the city.

Sometimes we need catalysts to stimulate direction.

MBTI 職業性格測試報告

分析：您的性格類型是「ISFP」( 藝術家 )

沉靜，友善，敏感和仁慈。欣賞目前和他們週遭所發生的事情。
喜歡有自己的空間，做事又能把握自己的時間。忠於自己的價值觀，忠於自己所重視的人。
不喜歡爭論和衝突，不會強迫別人接受自己的意見或價值觀。

ISFP型的人平和、敏感，他們保持著許多強烈的個人理想和自己的價值觀念。
他們更多地是通過行為而不是言辭表達自己深沉的情感。
ISFP型的人謙虛而緘默，但實際上他們是具有巨大的友受和熱情之人，但是除了與他們 相知和信賴的人在一起外，他們不經常表現出自我的另一面。因為ISFP型的人不喜歡直接地自我表達，所以常常被誤解。
ISFP型的人耐心、靈活，很容易與他人相處，很少支配或控制別人。他們很客觀，以一種相當實事求是的方式接受他人的行為。他們善於觀察周圍的人和物，卻不尋求發現動機和含義。
ISFP型的人完全生活在現在，所以他們的準備或計劃往往不會多於必需，他們是很好的短期計劃制定者。因為他們喜歡享受目前的經歷， 而不繼續向下一個目標兌現，所以他們對完成工作感到很放鬆。
ISFP型的人對於從經歷中直接瞭解和感受的東西很感興趣，常常富有藝術天賦和審美感，力求為自己創造一個美麗而隱蔽的環境。沒有想要成為領導者，ISFP 型的人經常是忠誠的追隨者和團體成員。因為他們利用個人的價值標準去判斷生活中的每一件事，所以他們喜歡那些花費時間去認識他們和理解他們內心的忠誠之人。
他們需要最基本的信任和理解，在生活中需要和睦的人 際關係，對於衝突和分歧則很敏感。

您適合的領域有：手工藝、藝術領域、醫護領域、商業、服務業領域等

您適合的職業有：

客戶銷售代表
行政人員
商品規劃師
測量師
海洋生物學者
廚師
室內裝潢設計師
園藝設計師
旅遊銷售經理
旅行社銷售人員
職業病理專業人員
時裝、首飾設計師
陶器製作者
樂器製作者
卡通漫畫製作者
素描畫家
舞蹈演員
畫家
出診醫生
出診護士
理療師
牙科醫生
個人健康和運動教練
體育用品、個人理療用品銷售員
餐飲業、娛樂業業主

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還滿準的。

Finally

Well, I'm back at home...after more than a month.
I'm still trying to get used to not being a counselor in a yellow shirt.

Still tired.
Still doesn't want to wake up.

I miss you guys already.

Coming to an end.

Well, my sophomore year is coming to an end. A lot has happened. Including some very high highs and some quite depressing lows. I've chosen a tight schedule for my junior year, maybe my college life-style will have a change, who knows? I really welcome a change, and I want to be more serious about my academic pursuits.

Starting from July 4th, I'll be gone from home for about a month, returning on August 6th. I hope this camp will change me, I really want some goddamn change! : )

Voces Inocentes/Innocent Voices

今天早上最後一堂西語課是看一部電影：Voces Inocentes (純真11歲) 故事是從一位在戰亂中的11歲的El Salvador小男孩眼光所描述的。男孩們一滿12歲就會被軍隊強制徵召去當兵，小小年紀就得握著槍面對戰爭。

我聽著電影中播放的一首Casas de Cartón(紙板房子)，覺得好難過。

百合漫畫推薦 list

我也突然發現，我好像看了非常多的百合相關漫畫。(輕小說方面我並沒有特別去研究，畢竟我看都是中文字的東西比較緩慢) 百合漫畫發展也有幾年了，這之中難免會出現一些固定的類別。有些作者是題材特殊、有些是角色很有愛、而有些更是能把已經常出現的類型發揮的淋漓盡致。我以下提到的也都會包含到GL，因為我覺得百合跟GL是互通卻又不相等的類別。

類型A - 校園故事：通常也是發生在女校。非常普遍的類型(根本是最常見的吧!!)，也因此能把此類型畫的精彩又與眾不同是件不簡單的成就。

類型B - 姊妹故事：這或許是受到瑪莉亞的凝望影響，哈哈! 不管是學校內的、親家的、自稱的...這類型也可包含到主僕關係、有錢vs平凡、青梅竹馬等這些類似的型態。

類型C - 青年百合：這詞是我自己亂創的啦，就只是在指成年人的故事，而非校園內學生之間發生的。 這類型的作品會偏向寫實，也相對的比較少出現。

類型D - A女與B女相識，逐漸發現喜歡上對方，故事結束：這個類型算是非常廣泛，因為我覺得大部分百合漫都是點到為止(是這樣用嗎?)。如果能把以上那個過程描述的很棒，那也就算了。但太多作品都不知在幹嘛，然後告白完就happy ending。我比較在意告白之後...的故事發展。

類型E- 淡百合：這類型我非常喜歡，沒有跨入任何關係，卻又讓妳覺得好像有什麼東西存在... 瑪莉亞的凝望算是典範，不過新作品已經比較少出現這種的類型的了。

類型F- 假百合、偽百合：只是純粹為了服務、為了H、為了....etc。偽百合也是指男扮女裝被女生愛上的這種爛故事，我真的很討厭這種故事(女生女扮男裝大至上也不太喜歡)，不過可能會有少許例外。這種類型我很少仔細去看，但我覺得Strawberry Panic(草莓狂熱、驚爆草莓)有點符合。當然也是有更糟的，沒劇情、角色發展的一些很囧的作品。

Different Painting

A Tragedy

Parallel to Picasso during his Blue Period, life's experiences has left a deep impact in your life. Yet, like the people in the painting, you knows that there are things you can't say. You are mysterious and lonely. Friends around you may or may not notice, but you are definitely more sad than you appear to be. The space between the people represents an emptiness which you do not know how to fill. You feel insecure. (copied from Facebook Quiz: A Painting that is you.)

This is actually the only Facebook quiz that I think has some meaning. The weird thing is my painting actually changed after a year, from the Son of Knowledge to the Tragedy. It's kinda amazing because the Tragedy landed its marker even closer to my heart and personality. Great quiz!!

明日への扉 (迎向未來)

明日への扉 - I WISH

感覺是首適合夏天的歌，又讓人莫名充滿希望與感動，卻也使我感到一絲淡淡的感嘆。前幾年時這首歌好紅，我記得電視上會一直播，隔了幾年之後又翻出來聽別有一番風味。

陽光、戀愛、希望...迎向未來。

tumblrrrrr

最近在FB、PLURK、Tumblr都發展良好的感覺，反觀我的Blogspot有一點點沒落。要找到靈感與對的心情下，才會想打一篇有意義的網誌。我發現我現在越來越少...會發這種文章。以前在無名雖然不夠成熟，常常會發表一些很沒有質感的東西，但我發現在那邊所留下的字句往往都充滿了許多真誠的情感。不過也是因為太過真情流漏，使得我現在不想再用無名。我不得不承認，那邊所保有的記憶，是無可取代的。

Labels. [from @thesexpistol.]

I'm being lazy again, don't know what to type. I'm outta inspiration at the moment, so...I'll make do with this interesting piece I saw on Tumblr.

These are all very stereotypical labels, and it's meant to be satirical and ironical. So, have a little laugh!! I'll put comments under ones that I have thoughts or have something to say about. : ) (My thoughts are in italics)

Fullmetal Alchemist END

On this day, I finished the last chapter of Fullmetal Alchemist. I don't have the time to come up with a review or thoughts on this series, and I also have many parts in it that I have to check up on.

I always feel kinda sad and empty in the heart when a manga series, especially long ones, ends. It makes it even harder to part with it if it's also a manga series that I greatly enjoyed.

This post is just to...uh, memorate the day I read the end of Fullmetal Alchemist.

Farewell to Ed, Al, Winry, Riza, Armstrong, Scar, the Xing people, and all the other great characters in this story!!

謝謝你們!!

語概課中途下課，王子恩跟陳利玫硬找我去買飲料。我原本想說買飲料也太遠，這邊是R棟欸，要走一堆樓梯。沒想到王子恩就半逼迫我一定要從位子上起來，我當時還是沒想太多。是走到了陽台的販賣機這邊，看到了大家都在外面，我才開始懷疑。

皮的鑰匙吊飾

Addidas的軍帽

謝謝你們!!!!! : )

anime related

Well, I should say that I am a fan of anime in general. The truth is that I haven't really watched that many anime series, but I am an avid reader of anime reviews/previews/thoughts/critics and I also enjoy anime music, especially original soundtracks. I love reading snarky as well as witty comments concerning anime, and I thoroughly enjoy the sarcasm and irony there-in that not everyone can understand or appreciate.

I guess the only crowd of friends that I can talk anime with is my high school friends and online friends. I'm not saying that we are anime fanatics or otakus; in fact, I think not all of us really identify ourselves that way. We are just able to include anime and manga into daily conversation. I have always wondered why anime/manga fans are viewed in a negative way in the society at large. Most people think of anime fans or otakus as a crowd of awkward and awkwardly dressed people. While there are many people who fit in that particular stereotypical view, the thing is that we're not all like that.

《かえり道》 回家的路

《かえり道》 回家的路

獨自走在夕陽斜照的回家的路上，
一直想念你。

初次看見的景色依舊，
而你卻不再。

那天你說的話太過突然，
你說，“我的她”
“你要最先向我介紹”我如此回答

從明天開始，
對你發自內心的笑也好，
對你熾熱的愛慕之心也好，
我會不假思索地保留。

這已然浮現的心情，
已經無法抹去喜歡你 。

為什麼會如此鬱鬱寡歡，
如此地悲傷？
你明明一直都在我身邊，
現在卻彷彿說了“再見”

多想立刻轉過身去，
一口氣跑去，
想追回你，因這份感情無法駐足。

從明天開始，
把那份對你的發自內心的笑，
獻給這太過炫目的天空。

靜靜地，我把這些念給自己聽。

啊，其實想告訴你的是
多希望你能明白我的心
啊，現在已無法言語

我是如此愛你。

東吳

有時也會覺得，東吳滿美的，我的大學。

待了也快滿2年了，時間真的過很快。

Lyanna Stark

I'm still re-reading A Feast For Crows, and it just makes me even more anxious waiting for the 5th volume to come out... Please, Mr. Martin, don't let me down again. I am putting my hopes on the release date posted on Amazon.com!!!

98迎宿薪傳影片

這個影片大概是唯一能讓我在大眾面前流淚的東西，到了大二末再次看一遍... 回想起了那天晚會完都快累死又睡眠不足。影片音樂一下，我原本還有點想強忍住淚水。當然還是忍不住，打從內心深處流下眼淚。那些流下的淚水代表著我們一起度過的暑假、我們的努力、我們的痛苦、我們的98迎宿。

All I ask for is respect.

It’s almost been a week since my class got first place in the English Play Cup. Another sophomore class, which won first place last year, just won’t stopp bitching about my class. Well, sure, we kinda lost control and gave out a cry when they announced the second place, but we snuffed out our cries quick enough. They call us disrespectful because of our little outcry, which was caused by our fraying nerves. But who is truly being disrespectful?

We got third place last year and we really admired their performance. What do we get from them this year? A video of their class all sleeping through our performance. I watched their performance this year too, with utmost attention. All because I thought them to be the most esteemed competitor. Our class never once badmouthed them, we were disappointed last year, but we at least had respect for them.

Happy 20th!!

Happy Birthday to myself!!!!!

Thanks for everyone's best wishes!!!

I don't feel 20 though!!!!!!! Ugh!!!!!

Tomorrow

I only know that I'm waiting for tomorrow.

明天，英二A即將帶來The Blind Woman。

今年有中文字幕唷 XD

團康是惡夢

基於某些個人的蠢因素與對方糟糕的作業跟傳達問題，我在星期五晚上11:00得知我以為只是普通的隊輔課程...竟然是兩天一夜的培訓營隊。(晚上是要在某個國小的教室地板睡覺，我臨時也變不出睡袋)主辦單位是救國團的魯啦啦團隊，而型式近似於大一新生的迎新宿營。我真的很不想去，畢竟我前天晚上才得知，是想要幹嘛? 我最近又很忙，週末的排戲會被犧牲掉。可是考慮到我暑假如果帶不到營隊，那我所拒絕的一切就白廢了，我就只好硬著頭皮去。

很好，8:00得在中壢火車站集合。該找誰、要幹嘛、會有什麼人、在哪碰面，我全都不知道。我只是搭到中壢，然後跟著人群走到前站出口，然後鎖定了幾位背著睡袋的青年。很幸運的，我的直覺是正確的，thank god!! 但我也是到了那邊才想到一件非常令我絕望的事實，他們看起來都是跟認識的朋友一起來，我卻是隻身來參加。我最討厭去認識新朋友了，因為我很被動! 於是我就非常安靜、非常尷尬的加入了那群同樣都是海外志工營的人們。

no time for serious posts

I am very busy, and it's going to stay this way until after 5/23. Then I can relax for a bit, but I am nearing the end of my sophomore years...

Bold ones that apply.
I am bored, so I add italic notes underneath ones I had something to say about.

RICOH GX200

提早的生日禮物真的好貼心。尤其在我這幾天這麼疲勞又低落的狀態下收到，我真的好感動。

爸媽，我愛你!!!!
今年父親節禮物一定會送的，就跟今年母親節一樣。 : )

我超忙。

我突然覺得，非常非常的累。

每天回家背台詞、找音效、剪音效、過敏。

好累，我真的...有點想要哭。







因為，我覺得在這一切忙亂中，我感到非常孤單。

High School Nostalgia

This is what I miss about high school. There'll never be another time when one can freely act very stupidly in uniform skirts.

The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has to Offer

So, yeah, life can be great when you look back on it with these in mind. Have a nice day!! : )

Ricoh GX200

我終於正式跟我爸講過我到底想要哪台相機，我選定了Ricoh GX200。 市價是18000，好可怕的數字，但我看網上都有12000~13400的平行輸入貨。

而且我也有發現有皮套可買!!! 官方版的是合成皮，反而比訂製的便宜多了。我真的心動了!!! 存錢啊...

My Favorite Line

Toy Soldier: The only raison d'être left in this world is imagination for a beautifully rendered past and present.

Raison d'être.

And yes.

Goodnight, blind lady.

前任男女主角Juliet&Romeo

原本以為不可能的，原本一直想放棄的。
結果，我們還是辦到了。

旋木

旋木
詞：楊明學 曲：袁惟仁 編曲：黃中嶽 主唱：王菲

這首歌，我聽了也很哭。

"我忘了只能原地奔跑的那憂傷"....好悲傷。

On Midterms

Brought to you by Kimi ni Todoke, "The Night Before Midterms".

I don't know much about this particular manga, it's in the shoujo genre, which I don't really look into a lot. But this is a brilliant picture that brings a smile to my face during the difficult times of the midterms. It is a rare instance that I can fully comprehend the Japanese words, with the help of the picture, of course.

The guy in the red shirt on top left is doing the final reviews, meaning he is hardworking. The girl on the top right is probably going to stay up all night doing last-minute studying. The guy taking a bath in the middle has given up, lol. The girl doing nail polish is ignoring the inevitable. The guy on the bottom left was turned down by a girl. (What happened to midterms!!?LOL) The girl sleeping soundly on the bottom right was well-prepared; therefore, she is at peace.

Well...which one am I? I guess I'm in between the top left and top right. : D

BOOKS

Hell yes!!! I enjoy reading books, especially during midterms. ; )

悶。

天氣好悶。

期中考好悶。

唸書好悶。

打排球好悶。

頭髮抓不起來因為太悶。



悶到我都長痘子了。 (欸

On Love

"If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don’t want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it, too. I want them to be able to do whatever they want around me."

- Stephen Chbosky

Well, yeah. Recently I had some discussion on the topic of love with a good friend of mine, who happens to be both male and gay. I don't have too many male friends that I can associate with, but he's an exception. No, he does not act like a girl, it's just that his train of thought is much closer to me than most people. You could say that we are people that are stuck between the two gender.

He has never been in an official relationship with anyone before, sure he's got those school crushes now and then, but no romantic relationships to speak of at all. I have been in a relationship with a girl, and yeah, that makes me none the wiser. In short, we are both inexperienced and very single at the moment. Some of my friends are very enthusiastic in finding a good boyfriend for him, and yes he is considering. But due to his many, uh, responsibilities, he just doesn't think he has the time for love.

Then he posed a question to me, "Don't you want to find a girl?" Well, I don't really know how to answer that exactly. I've only been in one relationship in my whole 19 (almost 20) years, that might sound stupid to some, but that's the plain truth. I might be an easy-going classmate, but I am a very closeted (pun intended?) person when it comes to more intimacy, even between good friends. Unlike my gay best friend, who knows what kind of guys he is attracted, and he has strong gaydar, lol. But me? I have no clue, really. I mean, my ex turned out straight after we broke up. I really don't know how to find a girl, the right girl. I am clueless, and I'm too goddamn shy. And the thing is, my mom is homophobic, and I don't think I have the strength to confront her on these matters again, at least not for a long time.

My last relationship was initiated by the other party, meaning I was on the receiving end. (now this sounds a bit weird) I have no idea how to take the initiative, and I am certainly no flirt. Not to mention the most important thing of all, I haven't met a girl that has got anywhere near my heart yet

Now, what does college love life hold for me? 0%, as of yet.

CAMERA!!!

之前看上了Sony新推出的travel camera，不過考慮到它是新出的，再加上SONY價錢一向又都偏高... 我最近又看上了兩台相機!!! 價錢都在一萬出頭，我打算請我爸幫我出一半，應該存的到5,6千塊吧!!

Ricoh CX3

Panasonic Lumix DMC-ZS3 (DMC-TZ7)

Panasonic那台是頗受好評，因為功能不錯、好操作、價錢OK、品質好。可是Ricoh那一台我認為比較有特色，它有個1cm超清晰近拍功能很吸引我... 怎麼辦，兩台都好棒，價錢又都差不多!!

quote

"I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

- Maya Angelou

There is still so much to life that I don't know or appreciate or accepted.

青春

什麼是青春，跨越了青春的門檻之後還能歌詠青春嗎？還是帶著嫉妒與疑惑扼殺了青春的可能。成人的框架與限制，很多時候成了與孩子溝通的屏蔽。有時候，有些孩子會在同儕裡找到歸屬。可是有時候，有些孩子選擇退縮到自己的世界裡，直到他們找到聽懂他們心靈語言的對象。


青春原是充滿浪漫，青春原是滿佈想像，可浪漫與現狀的衝突、想像與真實鴻溝，讓青春埋藏著無可忽略的難題。即便如此，卻不可拋卻青春，因為面對難題的過程，在那困頓的掙扎裡，才能強韌關於自我的意識與價值，也才能鍛鍊存在的勇氣與決斷。重要的是，在面對這種種之時，別要忘了青春的本質，「希望」。


我想嘗試訴說屬於青春的語言，屬於青春的自由，還有青春裡不容忽視的「可能」。

Tomorrow's Angel & Yesterday's Princess

ANGELA: Hey…I remember this feathered wing from somewhere. How did you get it?
YESTERDAY: Maybe I got it yesterday, I only know that I’m waiting for tomorrow.
ANGELA: What would tomorrow hold for me? Would I be able to become an angel tomorrow?
YESTERDAY: Maybe that angel exists in yesterday. [metro sounds] Goodnight, lonely angel. I will ask tomorrow on your behalf.

賣弄文字，應該是這次劇本的走向。

失去一支翅膀的天使詢問抱著一支翅膀的昨日公主她從何處得到那支翅膀的。但天使卻不知道，自己所失去的東西正是那支翅膀，只知道自己失去了某樣東西。昨日公主說她在或許是在昨天得到的，而她只知道自己在等待明天。天使又問了公主說明天能帶給她什麼? 能讓她變回天使嗎? 公主說天使或許只存在於昨日。

"晚安，寂寞的天使。我向妳替明天問問看。" 昨日的公主搭上了前往明天的列車。

Gender

"I don’t believe in a gender binary. I think that there are probably an infinite number of genders that one can be, and I do mean that in an abstract way. What’s the point in trying to decide if there are two genders or three or three million? However people want to express themselves and however they feel, that’s who they are. That’s their gender, that’s their personality, that’s their sex, that’s who they are. I don’t even like the word “gender,” I don’t understand the point of it." - Kim Stolz

It’s not contingent on chromosomes, sex organs, or any biological trait. Biology defines sex, not gender (though even biology has it’s grey areas). - from Autostraddle

I've always found the subject of gender vs sex to be fascinating. Maybe it's because I'm struggling to identify myself, to get to know myself for who I really am. I came out to myself in my third year of high school, after my breakup with a girl I liked, I finally viewed myself as gay.

I am a girl, but I don't want to dress in women's clothing. I look like a boy, but I'm not like a boy. These are many thoughts that I keep to keep my identity from falling apart.

嗯，香港

老實說，我不太想打什麼東西欸，超累的。不過我已經5天沒發文了...

香港夜景

Before Sunset

Storm & Little Boat

If I could liken my mother to anything, I would describe her as a great storm, and our household would be like a little boat floating on the ocean. The storm is unpredictable, and the little boat has to suffer the damage and violent wind brought on by the storm.

When she is in a good mood, there would be sunshine and good wind to propel the boat onward. But then the sky would darken, and woe on the little frail boat sailing on the wide wide ocean. The rain would come down in torrents, and waves would come crashing from all sides. The little boat would rock, sway, tilt, spin, and almost capsize. Then the storm would suddenly cease, and angry gray clouds would clear way for the sun to peek out again.

This is an endless cycle in my family. The captain is as useless against the storm as the sailors are, all that we could do is endure and pray for the sunshine after the storm.

2000~2009 anisongs

從2000~2009，34分鐘200首動畫歌，你認得幾首呢???
請按Read More去觀賞影片。

影片與評分都來自於http://mottohadeni.net/blog

春假

東吳真的很誇張!!!繼多了一個禮拜的寒假之後，東吳的春假又是一個禮拜的假期，好誇張唷。(笑) 去年因為滿多其他學校也放了3天左右的春假，東吳的一個禮拜就感覺還好。但今年我目前沒聽到任何其他學校像我們學校一樣放這麼久，清大放四五六日一，世新放五六日一。重點是，"一"還是清明節。

Sonnet 144

Two loves I have of comfort and despair,
Which like two spirits do suggest me still:
The better angel is a man right fair,
The worser spirit a woman colour'd ill.
To win me soon to hell, my female evil
Tempteth my better angel from my side,
And would corrupt my saint to be a devil,
Wooing his purity with her foul pride.
And whether that my angel be turn'd fiend
Suspect I may, but not directly tell;
But being both from me, both to each friend,
I guess one angel in another's hell:
Yet this shall I ne'er know, but live in doubt,
Till my bad angel fire my good one out.




So, it still amounts to nothing.

Lost at Sea

Lost at Sea - Eisley

Sailing over wave and tide oh ho ho
Fantastic waves against our sides oh ho ho
And I'm not so afraid
Lost at sea, as i should be
And I'm not so afraid
Lost at sea, you and I, you and me

Congratulations
Cause we've made it
All the way home
All the way home
And you know that
Until the stars fall
I will always love you
I will always love you

The mystery of salt and sea oh ho ho
Has never been intriguing oh ho ho
And to me but the sea
Green is set so beautifully
Against your thoughtful face
That I must close my eyes
And turn my face

Congratulations
Cause we've made it
All the way home
All the way home
And you know that
Until the stars fall
I will always love you
I will always love you

Still floating soft
I am dreaming and I'm glad I lost
And still with my fingers
I'm drawing circles in the water
In the water
And still, still you're always there

Congratulations
Cause we've made it
All the way home
All the way home
And you know that
Until the stars fall
I will always love you
I will always love you

"quote"

I see this throne, high and mighty in my eyes. How can I surpass it? Tell me how.

不要逼我剪頭髮，雖然我也想剪，可是我不想挑戰權威。

ソ・ラ・ノ・ヲ・ト (空・之・音)

這是空・之・音的原聲帶封面，我好想買!!

這部動畫讓我打破了"只看完結的動畫"這自我規定的原則，但我一點也不後悔。雖然我很討厭每個禮拜都像白痴一樣在期待禮拜三出新一集，但真的很值得。不過因為我是看英文字幕的版本，所以名字部分我只能打英文的羅馬拼音。

這是Rio跟Kanata的Amazing Grace合奏，這段超感人。 :' )

Kill me, Uncle Ben

Who would've thought I'd get another crappy topic for oral presentation? The disastrous Thomas Aquinas and the Middle Ages memories come flooding back to me. *shudders* Oh, and I just had to pick the most difficult research questions because of chilvarous reasons, don't ask.



GO TO HELL, BEN JONSON.







On a side note, Play Cup for Sophomore A officially started as of yesterday. I hope I do get to act though, it's not that I want to be the main character, I just want to be a part of it.

"quote"

我的傘，終於在一年多後...壞了。這把也是我用過最久的傘，I'll miss ya. :' (

SCU 110

Time is catching up with me again, and as I gazed upon the list of classes participating in the sports competitions, I only spotted one sophomore class and that was us. Freshman classes are actually forced to participate, just like we were last year. I still recall fairly well that we gave it our all and got 4 trohpies for the English major (with 16 people!!), which was awesome and so much so that we decided to try to accomplish or even exceed that achievement this year. The best thing was that we did, and though my body still aches from the 100m dash of the relay race, I am still giddy from excitement.

I missed the opening ceremony as of again this year, Saturdays are supposed to start late in my book, lol. I only volunteered for the women's 1200m relay race because I haven't really been exercising much lately. I already quit the volleyball team during summer vacation, and I didn't have P.E. class last semester, so you could say I'm quite out of shape compared to what I was like before. It was funny how that out of the 12 people who are to run the relay race, only a little over half showed up. We had to insert random people who were there, and we still WON. Our time was 3'20"69, and coincidentally the date was also 3/20. It was all about pride when I looked at the whole list and saw we were the only sophomore class and that we got 1rst place. The trophy this year was very tall, and everyone who ran got a gold medal!!

她與她的貓

她與她的貓 Their Standing Points

這個不到5分鐘的短片，在我心中引起了無數個漣漪。我在Facebook、Plurk、Blogspot(這裡)都發表了這個短片。我是因為《星之聲》、《雲之彼端，約定的地方》、《秒速5公分》這幾個作品都有去注意，才對新海誠這名字有些微的印象。不過目前都還沒有機會去看後面兩個比較長的作品，我一定得找時間去好好欣賞。之中的氣氛營造很棒，會引起深切的感觸，再加上背景很細緻很漂亮。(scenry porn, indeed!)

我是偶然在網路上看到有人介紹這個作品《她與她的貓》，光看標題就已經引起我的興趣。發現是個5分鐘以內的短片，我就趕緊上youtube找，沒想到竟然是10+年以前的作品。在接近凌晨兩點夜深人靜之時，我獨在電腦螢幕前把這短片觀看完。深嘆一口氣，我好想哭。裡面從頭到尾都是以貓咪的角度在當旁白敘述牠的看法與觀察，女主人的聲音只有出現兩次。而且都像是背景音樂一部分似的，淡淡的口吻反而很深刻。

裡面的sec.4，講到女主人似乎是失戀了。接完一通電話後，椅子打翻，電腦在地上。女主人在貓咪旁邊掉著眼淚哭泣，這一幕對我而言非常深刻。因為我也有在我家貓身旁哭泣，而且是淚流不止那樣，然後Summer也像短片中的貓一樣，靜靜的待在我身邊。


女主人的聲音淡淡說出「誰來救救我。」


最後是以女主人與貓一起講出「都會喜歡這個世界的!」收尾。讓人彷彿又從灰暗中看到一道曙光...。

A Song of Ice and Fire

I recently saw the news of HBO's green-lit for the epic fantasy series, A Song of Ice and Fire, also using the Stark words, "Winter is coming," as motto. I was instantly struck with a flood of memories concerning this series, which I had first started reading in jr. high and then into my high school years as well, but the fifth volume, A Dance With Dragons, still hasn't come out after more than 5 years of waiting.

交換生是個X

我等了好久的交換生學校名單，結果終於出了。嗯，美洲加澳洲只有四所學校，而且都是之前被我排除的。我對於這個名單的公佈，充滿了期待，也充滿了一種恐懼。因為一申請，就意味著可能要從台灣消失一整年。雖然這也是我暗中渴望的大改變，但是我還是會害怕離開。從考大學那期間，其實我爸媽就一直希望我乾脆出國唸算了，可是當時我很排斥。現在雖然不會這樣了，但是我心中還存有一種障礙。

"quote"

"I soooo want a new camera!!!! SONY!!! Cyber-shot!!!! 1020 pixels!!!!!!!!!!!"

噢，這款相機大概是超過一萬元(死)，然後台灣還沒上市。

No longer compassionate.

No, I don't understand the love between family members, I really don't. I usually fulfill my responsibilities concerning my family, but I have rarely done them out of love. Like I said, I do come home and look after my ill-stricken mom, but I don't really care. Don't get me wrong, I was very worried and shocked when I saw my own mother sent into the ER, but that was more of a natural reaction. To be frank, I would've been just as shaken if it had been any other person that I knew that got sent to the ER.

You guys don't care, but I do.

普雷盃對你們而言，是什麼呢?

對我而言，普雷盃是一種感動，是一種成就。在我的人生中，很少事情能帶給我感動跟成就感。普雷盃讓我感受到，我能有所貢獻，而我所做的也備受肯定。當你對我說出："不跑也沒關係，反正我有我的生活，我也有排球。" 其實我很受傷欸。你以為，大家都跟你一樣，找到了生活重心嗎? 我什麼都沒有，你也不是不知道。我懂Juliet 2009不可能再現的，也但願其他人也能懂。可是，你讓我感到了，我是被拋棄的。

我們以前一起想劇本，老實說我只承認有我們三人，但是你們兩個卻慢慢的在遠離我。這常常讓我後悔當初決定退出系排，但我也曉得自己不可能再回去，只要那群學姊還在我就不想回去。排球是個我愛的運動，卻被染上了不好的情感。

李豪善、楊馥年，你們真的在乎嗎? 不要離我而去...

Bgm：YELL - いきものがかり

有附youtube

Rio-sempai!!!!! !^*&$^*#&^%(#%

Rio-sempai!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't gooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!
The Amazing Grace duet was so touching, I wanna cry now.

Bgm: Amazing Grace

five is a big number

I started using my Tumblr 3 days ago, and that made me realize I now have too many blogs out there!!! I have a recently closed Wretch blog that I've been using since my first year of high school, a Facebook account, a Plurk account, a Blogspot (here), and lastly a Tumblr. The funny thing is, the content of these sites are all a bit different from each other.

踢是什麼?

其實我一直都覺得"踢"這個字是非常沒意義的。它背面所包含的意義，存有一種既定的觀念，說穿了根本就是偏見了吧。但當別人問我是不是踢時，我還是會回答：是。這只是因為這樣省著解釋的麻煩，而且我對不熟的人也不想多做解釋。但是，我不喜歡把自己想為是踢。

我覺得台灣的踢其實還滿不可思議的，我是說真的! 近幾年在街上就有非常多踢的身影，個個都是頭髮有型(有些啦)、穿著有型(也是有些)、都貌似帥氣或可愛的男孩們。有些還真的非常有造型，都會想多瞄幾眼，我都覺得超帥的!

"quote"

I found a picture from last year, I miss the good times that maybe I've began to forget.

但回不去了。

On Yuri

I have been expanding my yuri-wise knowledge since my senior year of high. I don't mean that I've read all the works of yuri, that would be ridiculous. I have at least, kept an eye on a lot of things that do concern yuri, and especially in manga and anime. And I think everyone's...uh, standard of what is or contains yuri is very different. Heck, the definition of yuri itself is very broad and ambiguous.

"quote"

"Sometimes the lies you tell are less frightening than the
loneliness you might feel if you stopped telling them."

- Brock Clocke

沒有目標的日子

其實我現在感到非常的孤單。雖然每天去學校都找的到人，也很少一個人。但是我真的感到...非常非常的孤單，因為我也清楚我是一個人。Leslie有系排、有他的相機、有Joe。Nancy有系排、系學會、高中同學。Phoebe有系學會、有男友、有教會。Maggie有Monkey。Leo有Ruth、有打工、有系籃。機車的那群有機車。那，我呢?

沒錯，我真的不知道我有什麼。

A Week's Worth of Ramblings

It's already been a week since my mom got sick, and I also feel like I've been living and keeping this home of mine alone for half a month now, lol. Summer must feel weird that I have to leave the house everyday because of school now, and I also noticed that Summer is actually aware that something big has happened in the household. He's just a cat, but I swear that he knows something is up.

School is boring, truly boring. The only good is that I get to see my friends and eat lunch with them!! I know that I've made a committment to myself that I'm going to put more effort into schoolwork this semester, but right now... I'm just plain exhausted and distracted. Sure, I stayed awake through the E56 periods of English Literature, but my heart is elsewhere.

I finally browsed through Leslile's wretch photo album of their trip to Ping-Shi, I'm not as angry or cynical as before, that was just a temporary frustration. I am touched to see that Maggie wrote down a line for me on the sky lantern, "Connie 一定會幸福", awwww... thanks you guys. :' )

寒假Finale

Random Insert

T.G.I.Friday --- no more.

It's more like, WTF!? it's Friday.

Well, my mom's back home in addition to hurting, puking, and resting. After two f*cking tired days at the hospital, she was finally able to check out. She went through many examinations, including the gastroscope, and haven't eaten anything in the 2 days she was in the hospital. I understand that she prefers to be able to rest at home and the hospital creeps the hell outta me, but I really thought that she should've stayed for another day for observation. I mean, her condition isn't worsening, but she could've gotten more sleep with the pain-killers that can only be given in the hospital. Alas, my mom was very firm when she decided to go home away from the hospital-y environment.

Maybe it's because my mom is usually so good at taking care of herself, she has had the occasional cold or flu but that's it! I found the scene of her getting on the ambulance to be very shocking, and I was even more traumatized after my first appearance in the emergency room. (the so-called ER that I only ever saw on television) I'm already not very good at taking in bloody scenes or blood itself, and I find the hospital, especially the ER area, to be downright frightening. There are wails of despair everywhere, people are always rushing to and fro, beds are appearing in every corridor and corner, and not to mention the smell of medicine and blood and the sick.

突然間，

今天事情發生好快，我感覺一整天都在靠腎上腺素支撐。

Sasameki Koto 13 [Final]

I just finished the first season of Sasameki Koto, and I thought it was really good, really really GOOD!! What a coincidence it is that these 13 episodes came to an end on volume 2 of the manga, which is exactly the same as the progress of the manga licensed in Taiwan. I didn't really read onward, even though there are scans available online. Maybe I should catch up on the manga, and I am a little more intrigued as to what happens afterwards concerning the story after I finished this season one of the anime. I am definitely looking forward to the second season, and I hope the quality will remain this good!

The anime pretty much stayed faithful to the plot of the manga, with the exception of ep. 11, but that was also a pleasant episode. The art is great, I mean it is a lot more detailed and looks better than the manga, which is the first positive sign of a decent adaptation. A lot more attention was paid to the background in the anime, meaning that most people had a face complete with eyes, nose, ears, and mouth. Lol. And side characters like Azusa, Akemiya, Tomoe, and Miyako were inserted into the background, making appearances even before they were to enter the main plot. Kiyori was much more detailed and looks more like a real character, she was like a part of the background a lot in the manga.

論網誌

昨晚正式在無名的網誌那邊公告，已經不會再更新了。會想換來一個比較無人知曉的網站，也是因為無名的曝光率太高。有時想打什麼東西都要考慮到會有很多人，不論認識與否，會去那邊看。而且無名有在走下坡的現象，對我而言啦，看到誰來我家那邊都是一堆廣告或色情網站會覺得有點不悅。再加上我那自己的心理因素使得不能隨意發文，最後就決定要換一個網誌。Facebook雖然跟無名一樣曝光率高(可能還更高)，但是FB像是在廣大人群中反而看不到細節或某一人那般，可以比較不去在乎。況且我也不打算把FB當作網誌來經營，我都把那裡當作與許多人保持連絡的地方，偶爾抒發一下情緒罷了。

為什麼會選擇這邊...其實沒什麼特別理由，也許是有些我在follow的網誌也都是用這個blogger。這邊比較純粹，就打文章而言，想要引言、貼圖、貼影片都算方便。除非自己去設定，不然是沒有留言版或相簿需要去管理。我一直都是個不太會用樣式的人，而我也對那些華麗的樣式沒興趣，像這邊這樣簡單清楚就好。而因為沒了負面的心理因素也感受不到什麼異樣眼光，我在這邊真的是想到什麼就寫什麼。我原本是打算要全英文，但後來考慮到我中文造詣會更退步，於是決定有規律的中英文交替打。

Hey Digimon!

After falling into the world of Pokémon, I guess I'm still stuck in this whirlpool of memories. (sighs) Pokémon was one of the three main cartoons that I remember from my days in the States, the other two is Digimon and Cardcaptor Sakura. Digimon has forever been compared with Pokémon and not without good reasons too, they're both about the adventure of kids and monster-like creatures. I've already made it pretty clear that I love Pokémon from the bottom of my heart in the last post, lol, but that doesn't mean I prefer Pokémon over Digimon! Actually, I watched Digimon 01 and 02, yep, two complete series, and I gotta say that Digimon has a much more interesting plot than Pokémon. I know that a bunch of kids accidentally trapped in an other world and then ended up being the destined saviors all sound very cliché, but hey, that cartoon was from almost a decade ago!! And it was aired in the US, where not too much JP stuff has been introduced yet in those days. Kids loved that show, and that included me!!

I do have some preferences in this show, meaning that I liked those kids from 01 much more than 02. I mean, Tai is the ultimate one and only main-protagonist-looking-goggle-wearing guy that I would never hate, lol!!! I liked Matt, the best friend that gone bad but returned good, and I recall that I prefered his looks, ah... the blonde guy. I liked T.K. and Kari, the siblings type with the matching angels Digimons! These two were a large part of the reason that I continued with the second season, I'll get into that later. I liked the feminine Mimi with her cool hat and the computer geek Izzy and the nerdy-looking Joe. Seriously, I really think this group is the BEST in all of the Digimon series!

開學後...

老實說，就目前而言，我覺得寒假該結束了。雖然這樣講可能會遭受到多數人的怨言，因為東吳今年很莫名的比其他學校都晚一個禮拜開學，從1/15考完當天放到3/1唷。真的很誇張!!!一整個二月都包含在這次寒假裡面耶。(汗) 每次放假前都會有許多冠冕堂皇的理想，像是要調整作息、延伸閱讀、畫畫、等等。更不用提我對這寒假原本充滿了希望與期待，與某兩輪交通工具有關啦。不過到頭來，我好像只是變得比較會顧家而已，再加上有去駕訓班。(苦笑)

...可是，我這寒假感覺什麼地方也沒去，什麼事也沒完成啊!!!!! (吶喊)

Good ol' Pokémon

Pokémon is THE memories of my elementary school days in Chicago of the USA, it was all the rage back in those days. It was a time when kids thought Game Boy Color was the best invention like ever, I'm joking of course, that was what I thought. lol It always kind of urks me nowadays that what little kids hold in their hands are the super expensive and high-tech looking PSPs, no offense to the hand-held counsel itself. You get to watch movies, take photos, listen to MP3s, and play fancy games with that one little machine. Now this is a long way off from what I lovingly held in my hands and played Pokémon with, yep, almost a decade ago... I'm feeling old and cynical.

Pokémon was so popular, it had the anime airing on TV (note: my Pokémon memories are all in English, including the anime and the songs), mangas selling in bookstores, trading cards literally everywhere, and the Game Boy games making kids like me even more addicted. I would wake up early on weekends just to see the Pokemon anime, and would save my pocket money to buy trading cards. Pokémon was the alpha one, next to Digimon and Yu-Gi-Oh. Oh, and I still have the trading cards stashed away in the house somewhere because I couldn't bring myself to throw them away. I think of these cards like photos that bring back fond old memories of times past...

輕聲密語

其實最初接觸這部漫畫是純屬意外，只不過是在逛書店，然後沒經過考慮就手癢買下的。當時我也沒想太多，更沒料到這會是一部百合漫畫。封面感覺是不錯，但翻開後對於畫風是有點失望...。不過它的故事卻非常細緻，作者很會描述女孩們的心情，那種情緒上的拉扯看的我非常有感觸。而且之中也有適當的放入搞笑劇情，看一看沉重的之後能笑一笑。

總之，輕聲密語在講高中女孩們之間的友情與愛情，而主角們是兩位非常要好的朋友。村雨純夏，175公分，文武雙全，全身散發著帥氣的氣息。風間汐，一位只喜歡可愛女孩子的女孩。而村雨喜歡這風間，卻只被當作最要好的朋友。故事大概就是這樣，看著兩人之間的拉扯，然後作者也善用了許多百合與漫畫界的老梗。老實說，看到這種設定我也會替村雨感到無奈，在現實世界常常也是如此不是嗎?拋開漫畫中誇張的部分，其實這種情況是存在的。我就很能體會村雨的心情，也因此時常想用力巴一下風間，醒醒吧風間!!

Today is Gonna Be a Great Day

I admit, I like to watch Disney Channel in my leisure time. For one thing, it's cartoons in ENGLISH, which I really really miss. I would gladly watch Cartoon Network too, IF it had the dual language option. It's such a great pity since CN has some of the most ridiculous cartoons from the US (e.g. Cow and Chicken, Johny Bravo, Tom & Jerry, Dexter, etc.). I have heard that kids my age in the US or other foreign countries at that don't watch Disney at all, in fact some of them even look down on Disney. I know it's a kiddy channel and all, but what harms are there in enjoying simplistic and funny kiddy shows.

I remember really clearly one summer when my ABChinese friends from the US came to Taiwan, my brother and I showed them around a department store. We came upon the CDs section, and the ABC brothers saw the High School Musical Soundtrack. They started laughing and pointing at the cover, and scoffed at the singers. That high school drama never really appealed to me, but some of those songs are pretty decent enough. I guess I don't understand or relate with Americans my age. *shrugs*

初一凌晨的海尼根

虎年快樂，99年!

附上一張瑪奇新出的老虎寵物應景一下，這隻真的滿可愛的。大貓咪! : D

今年大概是我人生中第一次，沒跟我爸媽一起過年。每年都會覺得我爺爺家的人口在縮水，但其實這次也只少了他們兩位。雖然有點愧疚大掃除似乎沒幫到什麼忙，因為大人們好像也沒有搬動沙發那般的打掃，我媽不在果然差好多。 (小小的感嘆) 不過除此之外，我覺得今年過年還不錯欸。雖然只是吃東西、看電視、打麻將，不過這就是過年嘛!

Fangirling & FF13

Fang and Vanille

Annie On My Mind

Meaningful Anime?

I guess the few meaningful things that I've done all winter vacation was driving lessons and watch anime. LOL I usually only watch one series once in a while for very random reasons like stumbling upon them on the web or it was just a whim. And I usuall choose to watch finished anime because I don't like to wait, it makes me feel like an idiot when I'm sitting in front of the TV or computer pining for the next episode. Well, I've broken that rule as well. *shrugs*

Let me see... all the anime series that I've finished on the computer are: Moyashimon, Toshokan Wars, Ga-Rei -Zero-, Strawberry Panic, CANAAN, Kara No Kyoukai movies 1&2, Marimite Season 4, and Minami-Ke all 3 seasons.

There are also some that I dropped for no apparent reason: Higurashi, Burst Angel, Kanazuki No Miko, Madlax, El Cazador, etc. Most of these are pretty famous yuri-wise, but I couldn't focus on any of them and lost my interest. I watch anime mostly for entertainment and self-amusement, so critics and reviews don't really affect my opinion on what to watch. Though I have to admit that reading anime review blogs is one of my favorite Internet past-times.

人與人

我常常在想，到底該如何維繫兩人的關係。我不認為自己是個交不到朋友的人，但我也知道自己無法輕易與人深入交友。不管是誰，我都無法。這是一個很嚴重的缺陷，也是上了大學之後才察覺到的。畢竟以前高中成天混在一起，每天都會見面，高三更是一起當考生留校夜自習培養出革命感情。在那種環境下，自然而然，拉近了彼此的距離。

但是大學不一樣了，一方面得顧及以前高中的交情，另一方面又得面對全新的環境與人。我也知道，比起我一些高中朋友，我算是很幸運能認識一群不錯的同學。然而，我的被動一樣是沒變。我不擅長當做領導人群的角色，也不喜歡做決定。從吃飯的地點，到出去玩的地點，到該做什麼...種種事情我幾乎都是順著他人的意見。只有對於關切到自己本身的貼身事物(e.g. 衣服、髮型、等)，我才會出現所謂的堅持。