I dread the day when that part of me became a speck in the distance.
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1.04.2013
Another year, 2013
2013 crept upon me in a steady pace, I have been quietly watching the days go by ever since Christmas. But it wasn't until the last 4, 3, 2, 1!!!! was yelled that it really hit me in the face that 2012 is...no more. To me, the passing of 2012 was much more than a year gone by, the part of me that still clutched on to my identity as a college student became one step farther away, and it's marching at a steadfast pace away from me.
3.28.2011
15 Songs that went on endless re-plays in my iPod
In no particular order, here goes the 15 songs. (I'm not including OST songs.)
1) Trolley Wood - Eisley
This was the song that made me discover Eisley. To tell the truth, I don't understand what the lyrics are talking about, but I love the melody and harmony of it. Somehow it also reminds me of the twins Adeline and Emmeline from the book The Thirteenth Tale.
"Out one day
Walking one day
Out one day, with you hallelujah"
2) 下個星期去英國 - 陳綺貞
Cheer Chen's songs are great, but this is the one score that I could really relate to. It tells of two friends who have drifted apart, and I know what that feels like. Everytime this I listen to this song, I recall our friendship, high school, and the distance that is now between us.
"因為我曾是你 我曾是你 無話不說的朋友
因為我們改變太多"
3) Love Story - Taylor Swift
Heh, I actually was the first among my friends to discover Taylor Swift before she came to Taiwan. This song also became the theme song of our freshman English play Juliet, though ironically our play was no love story.
"We were both young when I first saw you..."
4) Yell - いきものがかり
The lyrics of this song strikes a chord within me. They tell of dreams, hope, and being lost. Ever since getting into college, I've been constantly thinking of my future. What am I going to do after graduation? What do I want to do? I think back on childhood dreams, and find that I don't have dreams now anymore, which makes me sad...
"「“わたし”は今 どこに在るの」と 踏みしめた足跡を 何度も見つめ返す
「”我”現在在哪？」 反復地凝視著走過足跡
枯葉を抱き 秋めく窓辺に かじかんだ指先で 夢を描いた
在秋天來臨的時候懷抱著枯葉 用凍僵的手指 描畫著夢想"
5) 情歌 - 梁靜茹
I usually don't take much liking to conventional love songs, but I think this one is pretty decent. And it does make me sad.
"還好我有 我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著 哭著笑著
我的 天長地久"
6) Obvious - Hey Monday
This will always be Fang and Vanille's song in my heart, also my gateway song to Hey Monday.
"So surreal
As the story unfolds on the screen
Stop stalling
The credits are rolling
Hold me now
Before we run out of time"
1) Trolley Wood - Eisley
This was the song that made me discover Eisley. To tell the truth, I don't understand what the lyrics are talking about, but I love the melody and harmony of it. Somehow it also reminds me of the twins Adeline and Emmeline from the book The Thirteenth Tale.
"Out one day
Walking one day
Out one day, with you hallelujah"
2) 下個星期去英國 - 陳綺貞
Cheer Chen's songs are great, but this is the one score that I could really relate to. It tells of two friends who have drifted apart, and I know what that feels like. Everytime this I listen to this song, I recall our friendship, high school, and the distance that is now between us.
"因為我曾是你 我曾是你 無話不說的朋友
因為我們改變太多"
3) Love Story - Taylor Swift
Heh, I actually was the first among my friends to discover Taylor Swift before she came to Taiwan. This song also became the theme song of our freshman English play Juliet, though ironically our play was no love story.
"We were both young when I first saw you..."
4) Yell - いきものがかり
The lyrics of this song strikes a chord within me. They tell of dreams, hope, and being lost. Ever since getting into college, I've been constantly thinking of my future. What am I going to do after graduation? What do I want to do? I think back on childhood dreams, and find that I don't have dreams now anymore, which makes me sad...
"「“わたし”は今 どこに在るの」と 踏みしめた足跡を 何度も見つめ返す
「”我”現在在哪？」 反復地凝視著走過足跡
枯葉を抱き 秋めく窓辺に かじかんだ指先で 夢を描いた
在秋天來臨的時候懷抱著枯葉 用凍僵的手指 描畫著夢想"
5) 情歌 - 梁靜茹
I usually don't take much liking to conventional love songs, but I think this one is pretty decent. And it does make me sad.
"還好我有 我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著 哭著笑著
我的 天長地久"
6) Obvious - Hey Monday
This will always be Fang and Vanille's song in my heart, also my gateway song to Hey Monday.
"So surreal
As the story unfolds on the screen
Stop stalling
The credits are rolling
Hold me now
Before we run out of time"
1.02.2011
2010 +1
唔，2010就在我24小時不眠的狀況下跨到2011。不過這次我原本打算是窩在家裡跟Summer、爆告、還有瑪奇一起跨年的。沒想到，衝著建國100年這美妙的紀念數字，我竟然跑去升旗了。因為升旗要很早起，所以我就乾脆不睡了，直接熬夜到出門。
感想：我再也不會去升旗了。
大概唯一有點感動到的部分是聽"奉獻"這首歌時...
長路奉獻給遠方 玫瑰奉獻給愛情
我拿什麼奉獻給你 我的愛人
白雲奉獻給草場 江河奉獻給海洋
我拿什麼奉獻給你 我的朋友
我拿什麼奉獻給你
我不停的問
我不停的找
不停的想~
白鴿奉獻給藍天 星光奉獻給長夜
我拿什麼奉獻給你 我的小孩
雨季奉獻給大地 歲月奉獻給季節
我拿什麼奉獻給你 我的爹娘
...這個歌詞真的太感人了，邊聽會邊回想起2010的許多種種。 Q_Q
在98迎宿結束後的黑暗期渡過後個光明：The Blind Woman
2010年20歲的生日禮物：Lyanna
讓我的2010暑假充滿黃色、充滿感動、充滿回憶：Loveboat
使我找回了一年前所失去的溫暖：瑪奇、天渢水雲公會
總是在我身旁的：Summer!!!!!!!!!!
在東吳英文系難忘的課：女性主義短篇小說選、弱勢族群短篇小說選、同性戀文學、社會語言學
2010年在網路世界所建立的personal space：Tumblr (The Letter T), Blogger (When Once I Remember)
在東吳的你們：Leslie, Nancy, Maggie, Phoebe, Leo, Grace, Ginger, Amy, Monkey, Eddie, Joe, Lisa, Anna, Ruby, Jaki, Jill, Dolly, 哲學系的朋友, 中文系的朋友, 或許還有更多我沒提到的!
在各地的你們：鯊魚, 小睿, Sama, 溫將, 罐頭, Tina, 二姐, 優格, 小靈, 阿B, 特, 熊熊, 小舟, 奈奈, 老耶, 雲天, 阿C, 小芙, 阿吹, 綿羊, 燕子!!
雖然爭執不斷，但你們還是我的最後靠山：我的家人
最後...新的一年，希望還能有個特別的"妳"。(?)
感想：我再也不會去升旗了。
大概唯一有點感動到的部分是聽"奉獻"這首歌時...
長路奉獻給遠方 玫瑰奉獻給愛情
我拿什麼奉獻給你 我的愛人
白雲奉獻給草場 江河奉獻給海洋
我拿什麼奉獻給你 我的朋友
我拿什麼奉獻給你
我不停的問
我不停的找
不停的想~
白鴿奉獻給藍天 星光奉獻給長夜
我拿什麼奉獻給你 我的小孩
雨季奉獻給大地 歲月奉獻給季節
我拿什麼奉獻給你 我的爹娘
...這個歌詞真的太感人了，邊聽會邊回想起2010的許多種種。 Q_Q
在98迎宿結束後的黑暗期渡過後個光明：The Blind Woman
2010年20歲的生日禮物：Lyanna
讓我的2010暑假充滿黃色、充滿感動、充滿回憶：Loveboat
使我找回了一年前所失去的溫暖：瑪奇、天渢水雲公會
總是在我身旁的：Summer!!!!!!!!!!
在東吳英文系難忘的課：女性主義短篇小說選、弱勢族群短篇小說選、同性戀文學、社會語言學
2010年在網路世界所建立的personal space：Tumblr (The Letter T), Blogger (When Once I Remember)
在東吳的你們：Leslie, Nancy, Maggie, Phoebe, Leo, Grace, Ginger, Amy, Monkey, Eddie, Joe, Lisa, Anna, Ruby, Jaki, Jill, Dolly, 哲學系的朋友, 中文系的朋友, 或許還有更多我沒提到的!
在各地的你們：鯊魚, 小睿, Sama, 溫將, 罐頭, Tina, 二姐, 優格, 小靈, 阿B, 特, 熊熊, 小舟, 奈奈, 老耶, 雲天, 阿C, 小芙, 阿吹, 綿羊, 燕子!!
雖然爭執不斷，但你們還是我的最後靠山：我的家人
最後...新的一年，希望還能有個特別的"妳"。(?)
9.15.2010
Day 5 — Your dreams.
Dear,
I don't know what my dreams are anymore. I once thought I knew. I once thought I understood. But no, I don't.
When I was young, I was a little girl that loved to draw horses and dogs and small animals. So that little girl wanted to become a vet that could help animals. As I grow older, the sight of blood and having to cut open skin made me cringe. I failed at math. I do own a cat now though.
When I was a bit older, I was a teenager that loved to draw. I drew to express my feelings and sheets of blank paper were all filled with the immature scribblings of an immature teenager. That naive teenager proudly showed her drawings to her mother, who dismmissed the drawings with a scoff. "You're only wasting your time by drawing that kind of pictures, why don't you go learn water painting or something?" A few years after, most of the drawings are gone. Now there rarely are any drawings at all.
Now I am 20. I don't know what I want. I read books that make me cry. I read books to make me happy. I take pictures to capture the beautiful moments that I glimpse in life. I write down things that make sense to me. I wrote plays. I have all this, but I still don't know what direction to take. Where are my dreams?
I stare at my own shadow on a sunny day, I stare and stare. The sun is bright, I cover my eyes as I look up to the sky. Where are my dreams?
I don't know what my dreams are anymore. I once thought I knew. I once thought I understood. But no, I don't.
When I was young, I was a little girl that loved to draw horses and dogs and small animals. So that little girl wanted to become a vet that could help animals. As I grow older, the sight of blood and having to cut open skin made me cringe. I failed at math. I do own a cat now though.
When I was a bit older, I was a teenager that loved to draw. I drew to express my feelings and sheets of blank paper were all filled with the immature scribblings of an immature teenager. That naive teenager proudly showed her drawings to her mother, who dismmissed the drawings with a scoff. "You're only wasting your time by drawing that kind of pictures, why don't you go learn water painting or something?" A few years after, most of the drawings are gone. Now there rarely are any drawings at all.
Now I am 20. I don't know what I want. I read books that make me cry. I read books to make me happy. I take pictures to capture the beautiful moments that I glimpse in life. I write down things that make sense to me. I wrote plays. I have all this, but I still don't know what direction to take. Where are my dreams?
I stare at my own shadow on a sunny day, I stare and stare. The sun is bright, I cover my eyes as I look up to the sky. Where are my dreams?
7.01.2010
Coming to an end.
Well, my sophomore year is coming to an end. A lot has happened. Including some very high highs and some quite depressing lows. I've chosen a tight schedule for my junior year, maybe my college life-style will have a change, who knows? I really welcome a change, and I want to be more serious about my academic pursuits.
Starting from July 4th, I'll be gone from home for about a month, returning on August 6th. I hope this camp will change me, I really want some goddamn change! : )
Starting from July 4th, I'll be gone from home for about a month, returning on August 6th. I hope this camp will change me, I really want some goddamn change! : )
6.19.2010
明日への扉 (迎向未來)
明日への扉 - I WISH
感覺是首適合夏天的歌，又讓人莫名充滿希望與感動，卻也使我感到一絲淡淡的感嘆。前幾年時這首歌好紅，我記得電視上會一直播，隔了幾年之後又翻出來聽別有一番風味。
陽光、戀愛、希望...迎向未來。
感覺是首適合夏天的歌，又讓人莫名充滿希望與感動，卻也使我感到一絲淡淡的感嘆。前幾年時這首歌好紅，我記得電視上會一直播，隔了幾年之後又翻出來聽別有一番風味。
陽光、戀愛、希望...迎向未來。
6.09.2010
anime related
Well, I should say that I am a fan of anime in general. The truth is that I haven't really watched that many anime series, but I am an avid reader of anime reviews/previews/thoughts/critics and I also enjoy anime music, especially original soundtracks. I love reading snarky as well as witty comments concerning anime, and I thoroughly enjoy the sarcasm and irony there-in that not everyone can understand or appreciate.
I guess the only crowd of friends that I can talk anime with is my high school friends and online friends. I'm not saying that we are anime fanatics or otakus; in fact, I think not all of us really identify ourselves that way. We are just able to include anime and manga into daily conversation. I have always wondered why anime/manga fans are viewed in a negative way in the society at large. Most people think of anime fans or otakus as a crowd of awkward and awkwardly dressed people. While there are many people who fit in that particular stereotypical view, the thing is that we're not all like that.
I guess the only crowd of friends that I can talk anime with is my high school friends and online friends. I'm not saying that we are anime fanatics or otakus; in fact, I think not all of us really identify ourselves that way. We are just able to include anime and manga into daily conversation. I have always wondered why anime/manga fans are viewed in a negative way in the society at large. Most people think of anime fans or otakus as a crowd of awkward and awkwardly dressed people. While there are many people who fit in that particular stereotypical view, the thing is that we're not all like that.
6.08.2010
《かえり道》 回家的路
《かえり道》 回家的路
獨自走在夕陽斜照的回家的路上，
一直想念你。
初次看見的景色依舊，
而你卻不再。
那天你說的話太過突然，
你說，“我的她”
“你要最先向我介紹”我如此回答
從明天開始，
對你發自內心的笑也好，
對你熾熱的愛慕之心也好，
我會不假思索地保留。
這已然浮現的心情，
已經無法抹去喜歡你 。
為什麼會如此鬱鬱寡歡，
如此地悲傷？
你明明一直都在我身邊，
現在卻彷彿說了“再見”
多想立刻轉過身去，
一口氣跑去，
想追回你，因這份感情無法駐足。
從明天開始，
把那份對你的發自內心的笑，
獻給這太過炫目的天空。
靜靜地，我把這些念給自己聽。
啊，其實想告訴你的是
多希望你能明白我的心
啊，現在已無法言語
我是如此愛你。
6.07.2010
6.02.2010
98迎宿薪傳影片
這個影片大概是唯一能讓我在大眾面前流淚的東西，到了大二末再次看一遍... 回想起了那天晚會完都快累死又睡眠不足。影片音樂一下，我原本還有點想強忍住淚水。當然還是忍不住，打從內心深處流下眼淚。那些流下的淚水代表著我們一起度過的暑假、我們的努力、我們的痛苦、我們的98迎宿。
5.11.2010
no time for serious posts
I am very busy, and it's going to stay this way until after 5/23. Then I can relax for a bit, but I am nearing the end of my sophomore years...
Bold ones that apply.
I am bored, so I add italic notes underneath ones I had something to say about.
Bold ones that apply.
I am bored, so I add italic notes underneath ones I had something to say about.
5.09.2010
4.27.2010
4.21.2010
3.05.2010
沒有目標的日子
其實我現在感到非常的孤單。雖然每天去學校都找的到人，也很少一個人。但是我真的感到...非常非常的孤單，因為我也清楚我是一個人。Leslie有系排、有他的相機、有Joe。Nancy有系排、系學會、高中同學。Phoebe有系學會、有男友、有教會。Maggie有Monkey。Leo有Ruth、有打工、有系籃。機車的那群有機車。那，我呢?
沒錯，我真的不知道我有什麼。
沒錯，我真的不知道我有什麼。
2.28.2010
2.26.2010
T.G.I.Friday --- no more.
It's more like, WTF!? it's Friday.
Well, my mom's back home in addition to hurting, puking, and resting. After two f*cking tired days at the hospital, she was finally able to check out. She went through many examinations, including the gastroscope, and haven't eaten anything in the 2 days she was in the hospital. I understand that she prefers to be able to rest at home and the hospital creeps the hell outta me, but I really thought that she should've stayed for another day for observation. I mean, her condition isn't worsening, but she could've gotten more sleep with the pain-killers that can only be given in the hospital. Alas, my mom was very firm when she decided to go home away from the hospital-y environment.
Maybe it's because my mom is usually so good at taking care of herself, she has had the occasional cold or flu but that's it! I found the scene of her getting on the ambulance to be very shocking, and I was even more traumatized after my first appearance in the emergency room. (the so-called ER that I only ever saw on television) I'm already not very good at taking in bloody scenes or blood itself, and I find the hospital, especially the ER area, to be downright frightening. There are wails of despair everywhere, people are always rushing to and fro, beds are appearing in every corridor and corner, and not to mention the smell of medicine and blood and the sick.
Well, my mom's back home in addition to hurting, puking, and resting. After two f*cking tired days at the hospital, she was finally able to check out. She went through many examinations, including the gastroscope, and haven't eaten anything in the 2 days she was in the hospital. I understand that she prefers to be able to rest at home and the hospital creeps the hell outta me, but I really thought that she should've stayed for another day for observation. I mean, her condition isn't worsening, but she could've gotten more sleep with the pain-killers that can only be given in the hospital. Alas, my mom was very firm when she decided to go home away from the hospital-y environment.
Maybe it's because my mom is usually so good at taking care of herself, she has had the occasional cold or flu but that's it! I found the scene of her getting on the ambulance to be very shocking, and I was even more traumatized after my first appearance in the emergency room. (the so-called ER that I only ever saw on television) I'm already not very good at taking in bloody scenes or blood itself, and I find the hospital, especially the ER area, to be downright frightening. There are wails of despair everywhere, people are always rushing to and fro, beds are appearing in every corridor and corner, and not to mention the smell of medicine and blood and the sick.
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