2010 +1

唔，2010就在我24小時不眠的狀況下跨到2011。不過這次我原本打算是窩在家裡跟Summer、爆告、還有瑪奇一起跨年的。沒想到，衝著建國100年這美妙的紀念數字，我竟然跑去升旗了。因為升旗要很早起，所以我就乾脆不睡了，直接熬夜到出門。

感想：我再也不會去升旗了。

大概唯一有點感動到的部分是聽"奉獻"這首歌時...

長路奉獻給遠方　玫瑰奉獻給愛情
我拿什麼奉獻給你　我的愛人
白雲奉獻給草場　江河奉獻給海洋
我拿什麼奉獻給你　我的朋友

我拿什麼奉獻給你
我不停的問
我不停的找
不停的想~

白鴿奉獻給藍天　星光奉獻給長夜
我拿什麼奉獻給你　我的小孩
雨季奉獻給大地　歲月奉獻給季節
我拿什麼奉獻給你　我的爹娘

...這個歌詞真的太感人了，邊聽會邊回想起2010的許多種種。 Q_Q


在98迎宿結束後的黑暗期渡過後個光明：The Blind Woman



2010年20歲的生日禮物：Lyanna



讓我的2010暑假充滿黃色、充滿感動、充滿回憶：Loveboat



使我找回了一年前所失去的溫暖：瑪奇、天渢水雲公會



總是在我身旁的：Summer!!!!!!!!!!



在東吳英文系難忘的課：女性主義短篇小說選、弱勢族群短篇小說選、同性戀文學、社會語言學

2010年在網路世界所建立的personal space：Tumblr (The Letter T), Blogger (When Once I Remember)

在東吳的你們：Leslie, Nancy, Maggie, Phoebe, Leo, Grace, Ginger, Amy, Monkey, Eddie, Joe, Lisa, Anna, Ruby, Jaki, Jill, Dolly, 哲學系的朋友, 中文系的朋友, 或許還有更多我沒提到的!

在各地的你們：鯊魚, 小睿, Sama, 溫將, 罐頭, Tina, 二姐, 優格, 小靈, 阿B, 特, 熊熊, 小舟, 奈奈, 老耶, 雲天, 阿C, 小芙, 阿吹, 綿羊, 燕子!!

雖然爭執不斷，但你們還是我的最後靠山：我的家人

最後...新的一年，希望還能有個特別的"妳"。(?)

好運 (?)

玩瑪奇這麼久，我第一次感受到強運。運氣好是一種會令人上癮的感覺，因為太幸福了!!!! 以前不管怎麼玩轉蛋、怎麼開寶箱、怎麼抽什麼鳥的，都是一場一場的空。最近我卻非常好運，好運到讓我不可置信。

我竟然在下水道開到花瓣晚禮服....!!!!!! (價值1k萬) 雖然在當下我是決定送人，不過這也真的太不可思異了。1k萬!!!!! (呆) 雖然花瓣晚禮服送人了，我寶箱也有抽到大蝴蝶結 (買的唯一一把鑰匙開到的)，貓頭鷹也給了我貝姬魔法師服。我第一次感受到什麼叫好運 (泣)

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.

....I don't think there's anything I want to say.

Enough has been explored about my only love affair that happened like more than 3 years ago. It's really been a long time, so long that I feel kinda sad that it's the only memory of a relationship that I have.

She and I are great friends nowadays, actually, we really did go back to the time when we were just friends. It's just goes to show how much time has really passed.

But then, this quote that I saw online just makes me feel all complicated.

After a relationship, if the the two people can be friends, they are either still in love, or never were. If you were truly in love with somebody, just being their friend wouldn’t be possible.

So, were we really in love before, or are we.......... (?)

Day 5 — Your dreams.

Dear,

I don't know what my dreams are anymore. I once thought I knew. I once thought I understood. But no, I don't.

When I was young, I was a little girl that loved to draw horses and dogs and small animals. So that little girl wanted to become a vet that could help animals. As I grow older, the sight of blood and having to cut open skin made me cringe. I failed at math. I do own a cat now though.

When I was a bit older, I was a teenager that loved to draw. I drew to express my feelings and sheets of blank paper were all filled with the immature scribblings of an immature teenager. That naive teenager proudly showed her drawings to her mother, who dismmissed the drawings with a scoff. "You're only wasting your time by drawing that kind of pictures, why don't you go learn water painting or something?" A few years after, most of the drawings are gone. Now there rarely are any drawings at all.

Now I am 20. I don't know what I want. I read books that make me cry. I read books to make me happy. I take pictures to capture the beautiful moments that I glimpse in life. I write down things that make sense to me. I wrote plays. I have all this, but I still don't know what direction to take. Where are my dreams?

I stare at my own shadow on a sunny day, I stare and stare. The sun is bright, I cover my eyes as I look up to the sky. Where are my dreams?

Coming to an end.

Well, my sophomore year is coming to an end. A lot has happened. Including some very high highs and some quite depressing lows. I've chosen a tight schedule for my junior year, maybe my college life-style will have a change, who knows? I really welcome a change, and I want to be more serious about my academic pursuits.

Starting from July 4th, I'll be gone from home for about a month, returning on August 6th. I hope this camp will change me, I really want some goddamn change! : )

Different Painting

A Tragedy

Parallel to Picasso during his Blue Period, life's experiences has left a deep impact in your life. Yet, like the people in the painting, you knows that there are things you can't say. You are mysterious and lonely. Friends around you may or may not notice, but you are definitely more sad than you appear to be. The space between the people represents an emptiness which you do not know how to fill. You feel insecure. (copied from Facebook Quiz: A Painting that is you.)

This is actually the only Facebook quiz that I think has some meaning. The weird thing is my painting actually changed after a year, from the Son of Knowledge to the Tragedy. It's kinda amazing because the Tragedy landed its marker even closer to my heart and personality. Great quiz!!

tumblrrrrr

最近在FB、PLURK、Tumblr都發展良好的感覺，反觀我的Blogspot有一點點沒落。要找到靈感與對的心情下，才會想打一篇有意義的網誌。我發現我現在越來越少...會發這種文章。以前在無名雖然不夠成熟，常常會發表一些很沒有質感的東西，但我發現在那邊所留下的字句往往都充滿了許多真誠的情感。不過也是因為太過真情流漏，使得我現在不想再用無名。我不得不承認，那邊所保有的記憶，是無可取代的。

anime related

Well, I should say that I am a fan of anime in general. The truth is that I haven't really watched that many anime series, but I am an avid reader of anime reviews/previews/thoughts/critics and I also enjoy anime music, especially original soundtracks. I love reading snarky as well as witty comments concerning anime, and I thoroughly enjoy the sarcasm and irony there-in that not everyone can understand or appreciate.

I guess the only crowd of friends that I can talk anime with is my high school friends and online friends. I'm not saying that we are anime fanatics or otakus; in fact, I think not all of us really identify ourselves that way. We are just able to include anime and manga into daily conversation. I have always wondered why anime/manga fans are viewed in a negative way in the society at large. Most people think of anime fans or otakus as a crowd of awkward and awkwardly dressed people. While there are many people who fit in that particular stereotypical view, the thing is that we're not all like that.

東吳

有時也會覺得，東吳滿美的，我的大學。

待了也快滿2年了，時間真的過很快。

Happy 20th!!

Happy Birthday to myself!!!!!

Thanks for everyone's best wishes!!!

I don't feel 20 though!!!!!!! Ugh!!!!!

no time for serious posts

I am very busy, and it's going to stay this way until after 5/23. Then I can relax for a bit, but I am nearing the end of my sophomore years...

Bold ones that apply.
I am bored, so I add italic notes underneath ones I had something to say about.

我超忙。

我突然覺得，非常非常的累。

每天回家背台詞、找音效、剪音效、過敏。

好累，我真的...有點想要哭。







因為，我覺得在這一切忙亂中，我感到非常孤單。